Into the void

… It’s no laughing matter when selfish affairs surfaces and breaks things apart from mental stresses. I was very childish and cowardly seeking attention as my anxiety attacks me. I lost two good friends who really cared from my expression. I just don’t feel to do something else from the main focus. I only wanted to set my mind on one thing, but that has led me into a really miserable place. Focusing on just one objective for so long, alone, has me being pulled into the void. Is it really worth sacrificing who I care for, for something that has been worked on for half a lifetime? Not having that person there creates an empty void and everything falls like a house of cards. He helped me so much… I let him down… I fucked up.

Now I dwell into my thoughts. It hurts. I earned it. I hate myself for it.


About Gerardo Valerio

I'm Gerardo J Valerio, a freelancer in graphic design and currently a game designer. My aspirations are to have my creative works to be known throughout the interwebs. I'm right now venturing into independent game development and hopefully be successful at it. I'm also a crohn disease sufferer but advocate to find solutions against it. I live in Boston but my second home will always be San Francisco. I'm hopeful one day to return to the bay area and share my knowledge to enthusiastic folks who are curious about me. Also, my blog is the center piece of my expressions. I have always used it to communicate my feelings and artistry. Now more than ever before I will be posting new features and behind the scenes development of my quest to be a game designer. - g -
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