Gerardo’s Adventures

And relief.

I feel better today that my laptop is being worked on.  Yesterday I had to submit my laptop for repairs.  I was glad that it still had warranty, but I still had to buy a hard drive so that they could back up the entire system.  I’m still in denial though that my laptop fried up on me.  I wake up everyday thinking it still works but it doesn’t.

It’s all good now though because it’s being fixed!  Wooohooo!

Now you are wondering how my laptop fried right?  Well I don’t know exactly, but according to the tech he says that the motherboard zapped out.  So I tried to make sense why right?  Well I noticed that my apartment’s lights were off because the Microwave’s clock was reset.  I then thought it could of easily have been the unsafe outlet I was using to power my laptop.  I left it connected on the wall so when the power went out, there must of been a surge that killed my computer.

So of course after I learned about that my computer wasn’t responding (after 6 tries to restart), I broke down in tears and slept early until the afternoon of the next day.  Yeah of course it was hard on me, because I don’t have anything else to privately work with.  I then have this option to use the computers in my school’s campus, but it isn’t the same.  When I wake sometimes I have surges of ideas that I have to type immediately!  Or simply check my email and or facebook for replies.

So that’s the word.   Again I’ll try to update as current as I can but it ain’t a guarantee.

- g -

Hey peoples!

I know, it’s been a long while since I last wrote on here. Well, it does seems so though, but time here feels so long that 1 day feels like 2 here. I love it! It’s better than just feeling it’s like 1/2 in boston. I’m finally at peace here in San Francisco, so much though that my will to write has dwindled a bit. I guess I’m having to much fun to even try to document stuff here but I will show some stuff I’ve done. It’s so much I’ve done that it will take a while to post them here (which is a good thing!).

I’m going to A.i. school here in California, which is awesome so far. I have no complaints, the people here are so fuck’n awesome! I guess I’m still in my honeymoon stage, but I feel that it won’t go away for a long time. I live with 3 other roomates (One is soon to move out though) and they all are very cool to chill with.

Blasting my music away now, I’m focused on my part time job as a web designer and developer for the New England web company.

Well is time for me to go back and do my homework.

Later!

- g -

I just say WOW to the beginning of this month because of the crazy stuff that just went my way with. That stuff is work, love, and not knowing what’s going on with my brother. I try to stay sane playing Mario Kart and Smash Bros, but hell those things don’t do shit if you’re already have the soreness after effects of an anxiety attack. The anxiety attacks only happen if I haven’t smoked for a while and the smallest thoughts of worry become unbearable to me when it happens. That’s why I should stop smoking, but work is pressuring me to go at it.

I don’t have my desktop computer anymore and all the stress of work is getting me sick. I had to take expired pills to calm the pain down but it seems the effects are faded. Anyways I’m running out of them pills, so I’ll be seeing soon the hospital. This will only hold me back more of from my goal of going to Cali though I will feel relief in going again to the hospital. The part I’m afraid of is paying the bills, because I have no money. I’m done, toasted and ready to be served to the judge. God damn crohns, why did you have to take over my fucking life.

I just have to be ready when I go in the hospital again. I noticed though, that I happen to go in every 2nd year. I first went in in 2004, then 2006 and now I’m threaten to go back to the hospital once more. I say is because all of those years were more done with the subject of love and friendship. I lost some friends the year before and a love interest, so the stress and anxiety slammed hard on me. It’s already a tough month for me, and I have to decided if I would go back to hospital again. They will take away 5 days from my normal schedule, and seeing how these two days were without internet to hold my sanity, I would definitely go insane.

The last time I saved myself from this was in 2001, where I was done and gone ready to head to the hospital, but then I left to california. I guess I have to go to california as an emergency. I can’t be here anymore, my whole self can’t hold together anymore. I can’t sleep, I can’t eat, and I can’t stop thinking about that certain person. I can’t live without seeing her, but I can’t live knowing she is with someone else. In every angle I’m so done, just like Iron Man being refuged in a cave. So like Iron Man, I have to set a new plan in motion to save myself. I can’t live here anymore, and that’s a fact. Something in the air here doesn’t sit right with me but I can’t fall again or it will take another long time before I can go anywhere else.

But let’s see what happens, I’m not gonna stand here with my arm crossed anymore. I’m just thinking out loud so I can see my options clearly. I’m most definitely moving out, and not returning for a while but I have to make that break soon or I’ll be here for a bit while longer.

- g -

Well, the dissolve of the project that started it all has been initiated. Sad, I wished we could of run it longer. I was expecting it to run it longer, but now it seems that the world has collapse before me without me being conscious of what the fuck was going on! lol My partners all have run off to work on separate different things. The writing of from the best place to get celeb news has subsided, and I noticed that the popularity run has ended. Seems that my partners have run out of steam. Learning how heavy it is to run a website, they both decided to focus on something else. Mind you, I don’t really know what something else really is! lol I guess I’ve been trying to get everything done that I lost track myself. So I’m sad and disappointed that both my buddies have indirectly quit doing what I thought they were having fun with.

Oh well, whatever. I guess my plan B is coming along just on time too. I just need two months of savings before i can get back to service. I have other business ventures that will be ready before this one goes under.

- g -