So,

A few days ago I purchased plane tickets to fly back to San Francisco. It seems that I will be moving back to boston and my flight back will  be the last of my occupation in San Francisco for a time.

The tickets I bought are of two way, so my circumstance of getting my stuff and leaving back to my hometown will be definite this time.

Last week somehow something heard my prayers. A settlement check came in of the sum I was telling out loud for weeks. I can take everything out now back to boston safely. Then previously weeks before I got a message on the phone telling me of a job offer of mobile apps stuff. Anyways, that job is offering to pay 18 dollars an hour.

18 dollars an hour. . .

Holy shit! 18 dollars an hour!!!! @_@ I never had that amount flash at me before.

I don’t know what to do. . . I can actually survive with that dough. But then the check that came in sides with me moving back. What is the best mathematical choice here?

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So if you get to see this and actually think of the world around you in this point of view: You got super brownie points and know how to want to evolve into thinking beyond what we socially are. In all of this complexity we might get all tangled up with ourselves but when we pull out and view the world around us its so very simple and beautiful. Love, from what I believe, is a social device that unifies us in all conditions. We have to let go of our fabrications that limits us so we can think beyond. Where it comes to, I believe, is that we have to live life to our fullest potential and set our goals. It can be anything, but the rule here is: don’t let anyone pressure you to make your life what you want it to be. Ultimately it is up to you to take it to the next level.

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So finally!!!

I have completed the level design for the first final level of Dark Zeta.  It took me about a month to complete because of motivational issues. The previous posts will help you find out why lol

Anyways, I have been working to put the elements together in the final level. Also I have been writing down ideas on a site redesign for DarkZeta.com. I want to make it much more streamlined for users to enjoy. Because there will be more than just one Dark Zeta game, I’ll have a list when I create the second chapter to Dark’s adventures. As well I’ll have many other elements in the website that will branch out slowly from the series. I already have a spin off to the game working since 2009, but I will demake it to NES standard because I created high resolution sprites from the remake of the project. Yup you heard right, a remake demake of a side scrolling shooter game I made in 2003.

That and I’ll have a new shooter also planned for next month as a prototype for my group.

Don’t worry, you’ll get to try it out later this year when I’m finished with it.

The games that spin from Dark Zeta universe will be in Dark Zeta website to play. As time goes by and more games trickle in, I have already an expansion planned for the website and my arcade website MarioLegend.com will harbor them as well with others that don’t go with the Dark Zeta series.

I’m pushing forth more energy for Dark because its my baby since forever and its time to unleash it.  I know that when the Dark Zeta series is laid out like I want it, everyone will love it.

So after I’m done with part one, I’m already ready to make part 2. The next part will be a completely different experience from the first one just to distinguish both.  Its like the difference between Super Mario Bros. and Super Mario Bros. 2. Super Mario Bros. 2 in the USA of course (japan had a different more tougher expansion to the first mario which here they call it Lost Levels)

Those two games has a very distinguishable element in how they play. The first one you jump and squash, while the second one you jump and stand on the enemies. You have more of a realistic control to pick them up and toss them to the next enemy in the second mario bros game. That’s how radical I’ll have Dark Zeta 2 be, with new game design elements to make the series fresh.

So watch out! The next major update will happen in a month!

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So! I didn’t want to write an entry, instead I recorded one!

I’m just basically saying what’s going on at the moment.  I took advantage of nobody being around to make noise or disturb me while recording.

Enjoy!

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This is how I feel currently. Its been already a month since I was last working. So much has happen in march. And I feel like Rourke in this time of pain. I recently lost a good friendship with someone close. My nature drove her off. I was protecting her from the fiery subsurface that lies within. I’m a dude who will work on something, but you must be advised that sometimes with life, that something won’t happen for a while. Demand got to a breaking point, and I couldn’t deliver a promise that I can’t keep.
 
Mikey Rourke  had the same things happening. He stood up with following his path to a point where he couldn’t go much further. So things got really tough for him, and unfortunately, he ended up with nothing. The real motivators he had was his dogs. My motivator was the friendship I had with my friend.
 
I feel lost currently, so I came about a few conclusive points this week. Find another muse and friend who can push me without any promise or expectation. Get my things in boston together. Reinstate myself into the working class and grind for gold until I have enough to support myself and my projects.
 
My demand is fairly simple to get to. Just have to support my babies which are my online creations and such. That shit cost money. The biggest hedge to jump over is the student loans coming up next month. I can’t focus creatively if I have that pending. That can single handedly kick my projects to hell if I don’t approach it in a smart way. Hell I’ve seen folks who do have such debt push it off or even never pay it back. I don’t even know if I should risk my life to do that or even ignore it. There is no money for it now, and there is no money in the next 6 months time to pay not even the first month bill. So I don’t even know what to do.
 
Anyways, I put my project on hold again to find a solution to this problem. My depression doesn’t help but just slow me down so I’m flying back to boston effectively in 5 days from this post.
 
This is of course to find my motivation and somehow beat this.

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Break’s over! We are on again!

I’ve been working since sunday on my game Dark Zeta. It’s been crazy week, with my colleagues graduating from the Art Institute of San Francisco. I went in to take a peak but bumped into friendly faces, so instead I hanged out with them.
 
My blog got accepted by google, thus ads will start showing next week once I get it going this weekend. After that I got my musicians! They are ready to play some original works in which I’ll be very excited to get a listen! Two great guys who knows their stuff. Also I’ll be updating darkzeta site with a credit page for the next update to give tribute to the awesome people who help me out. As well I’ll be giving mention to the volunteers on here. . .
 

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Ugh and ugh!
 
This week I didn’t accomplish anything. I felt too sluggish to work on the game. My mood doesn’t work very well when there is no prime motive to start things. The game is all fine but I need a real prime motive, and I’m lost since I got let go from my tester job. That job really gave me a good conductive rush into everything else. Now I feel stuck. 
 
Worse now is that I got a slight game fever with idle worship on facebook. It’s a god game, and I can’t never have enough of such sweet god type of games. This is why I’ve been scared of playing minecraft, but god damn it lol I tripped into something else. 
 
Man I wish I could focus, turn on that potential drive from within on demand. I just get so tide up with human gunk that I drop out from what’s priority. 
 
Sometimes I feel like I’m right there at the edge of universal awareness but get knocked back into the profane. Do I need some god like energy to get back into focus? fuck, I wish I had some type of substance that just pushes me without the side effects of course. 
 
Alright, enough of my yak, I’m gonna be on pause for a little bit. I will though make some artwork once I get off from this state of mind. 
 
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well,

GDC is over. I’m sad that it is. On top of that, I got no more job. So now what will I do in the day? It was fun having a responsibility and plan out on things to do in my spare time. Now I have too much time again. I get lost in such an unbalance trend. I need to get out. So I’ll try to go to a programmers club or something to do in the day while I search for that next job. Of course, I got lots of time to dive in my current game creation, I just feel like I get that spark at night, you know what I mean?

GDC was fun to attend. Wish I had a time machine to redo it again.

So far I’m trying out ad stuff at the moment. I want to monetize my product. So I’ll be doing that stuff this week.

Besides that, I’ll have an update to the game later this weekend. I’m adding two new bonus stages and replacing the assets for the flip card bonus stage. Also I’ll be adding new stuff in Level 5 and completing level 6.

In retrospect – This game I’m making has a very deep human connection. Subconsciously I’ve been just adding things as I go. No real plan, just whatever feels natural to add. The funny thing is, this game feels as if it has a connection to recent global events – particularly with the Kony issue. I look back and view it as a whole, in which I see a connection, to then realizing I indirectly made a game that relates to it. Simply amazing, in which is should be this way. So the final boss will be blessed with the name – Kony.

Remember now, initially I had no real name to the shadow beast. In this instance, I wanted it to be mysterious, but I saw that it was proper to reflect this event. We are initially afraid of the dark and a threat of something that lurks in it is that nerve killing feeling that reflects this shadow beast. It isn’t dead in the first round of the game. Help is there to instruct the bold hero to do what he can to save his family. This is what I feel the link with the Kony issue lay. My hero Dark has a human name, but I’ll let you find out what it is in game. It took me a while to figure out what I would name him.

Now going on to another element in game. I’ll be using the greek alphabet to symbolize numbers or parts in game. This is to replace my youthful corny ideas and redundancies. Like in later parts of the series, I have Dark vs Shadow. So to clear that redundant idea, I replace his clone’s name with a greek letter instead. So its now, Dark vs Gamma or Alpha vs Gamma. The guardian addresses Dark as the first incarnation element of dream matter, or an Alpha. This will give you a clue on where I’m going with Zeta.

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I’m having too much fun to just sit here and write. lol but I’m going to add something quick about my game after the break

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